So.. a whole week has gone bye since I last saw my guys.
Not the Backstreet Boys.. The Exchange. Or, Diaz, Fredo, Richard, Aaron and Jamal.
Me and the girls had a FANTASTIC trip to Germany and got to spend a good amount of time with them.
As for the general experience of this trip. I AM IN LOVE with my girls.
They saw me, picked me up and distracted me when they saw me slipping.
Have to give extra props to Tiina for actually putting up with me for a whole week. I'm grateful.
These girls are SO special to me. We're all SO very different, but we work SO well together.
I guess.. cause of the fact that we actually are so different.
No one stepping in or taking anyone's "space". We all have our role in our group and we stick to that.
I learned a lot about myself and about other people on this trip.
I learned I really need to stop being so "blue eyed" as we say in Sweden.. To you.. That would be, naive. I always judge people based on my first experience of them.
That often leads me to disappointment. I get hurt, angry and VERY passive aggressive.
That's not who I am anymore. And I don't like it when that side comes out of me cause it takes me FOREVER to push it back in again.
I really need to just.. take a step back, observe and make sure I don't get hurt.
Fans will always be fans, dressed as Exchange fans or BSB fans, don't really make a difference.
At the end of the day.. Que Sera.
I Love and respect ALL of the boys and I always will. They will ALWAYS have my support.
ExchangeEurope and ExchangersUnited will keep pushing these guys and doing our best to promote
them for as long as we keep getting the help and response we're getting from the guys and from the fans.
Thank you for the trip of a life time. See you all SOON again!
stat
Saturday, August 16, 2014
Sunday, July 20, 2014
Angelica
I have this one friend. Well.. I have a lot of friends. But this one friend in particular, she means a little extra much to me.
She's one of those people who's just.. There.
She will tell you what's up when you LEAST want to hear it but when you MOST of all NEED to hear it. She will never tell you want you want to hear if it's not what you need to hear.
Angelica and I have had our runs, fallen out of touch do to.. well, life and other misunderstandings.
We always find our way back to each other tho.
I guess.. cause we just get each other and in the end of the day, I know she will always want what's best for me, and I for her.
She was one out of two people who was really there for me after the whole Jordan situation went to hell and back.
She was one of two people who I openly talked about my pregnancy and miscarriage with when it happened.
She knew things that no one else did, and before other people did.
I was, and still am just.. so comfortable around her.
I don't see her as much as I would want.. But when we do get to spend some time together things are never anything less of a perfect time.
I truly truly love you my dear friend and I hope you know that I will always be here for you.
No matter what.
Life may pull us a part and we may not speak to each other for long periods of time, but when it's all said and done, I never ever want to wake up in a world where I know that you and I will never be friends again.
She's one of those people who's just.. There.
She will tell you what's up when you LEAST want to hear it but when you MOST of all NEED to hear it. She will never tell you want you want to hear if it's not what you need to hear.
Angelica and I have had our runs, fallen out of touch do to.. well, life and other misunderstandings.
We always find our way back to each other tho.
I guess.. cause we just get each other and in the end of the day, I know she will always want what's best for me, and I for her.
She was one out of two people who was really there for me after the whole Jordan situation went to hell and back.
She was one of two people who I openly talked about my pregnancy and miscarriage with when it happened.
She knew things that no one else did, and before other people did.
I was, and still am just.. so comfortable around her.
I don't see her as much as I would want.. But when we do get to spend some time together things are never anything less of a perfect time.
I truly truly love you my dear friend and I hope you know that I will always be here for you.
No matter what.
Life may pull us a part and we may not speak to each other for long periods of time, but when it's all said and done, I never ever want to wake up in a world where I know that you and I will never be friends again.
I love you.
xoxo
Tuesday, July 15, 2014
Anxiety Delux
Anxiety struck like a motherf.. Triggerd last night so going on 26hrs now.. Faaaantastic.
I've been doing really good with anxiety these past few weeks but just as I think, hey.. I got this.. BAM! It hits me again. I wish it would just.. end and go away, and stay away.
Definitely is no worse feeling than Anxiety.
That feeling of.. "I hope I don't have to wake up tomorrow.. that it will all just be over... "
NOT a feeling I would even wish upon my worst enemy.
And I don't like taking my meds anymore.. I want to be able to handle, this on my own.. I want to be strong enough to handle this on my own.. But the fact of the matter is still that it IS a medical condition and no one would expect someone with asthma to just.. "handle it".
I don't know.. sometimes I just feel like.. No one gets it.
Spent this weekend out at Jennifers summer house. Full house out there as always.
I feel so, at home when I'm with Jenn and her family. They're so tight.
All of the million cousins, her mom, dad and aunt.
I love them all. I wish I had a family like that. Or a family at all for that matter. Never had one.
Gonna take my meds now and try and unwind.
Love to all.
I've been doing really good with anxiety these past few weeks but just as I think, hey.. I got this.. BAM! It hits me again. I wish it would just.. end and go away, and stay away.
Definitely is no worse feeling than Anxiety.
That feeling of.. "I hope I don't have to wake up tomorrow.. that it will all just be over... "
NOT a feeling I would even wish upon my worst enemy.
And I don't like taking my meds anymore.. I want to be able to handle, this on my own.. I want to be strong enough to handle this on my own.. But the fact of the matter is still that it IS a medical condition and no one would expect someone with asthma to just.. "handle it".
I don't know.. sometimes I just feel like.. No one gets it.
Spent this weekend out at Jennifers summer house. Full house out there as always.
I feel so, at home when I'm with Jenn and her family. They're so tight.
All of the million cousins, her mom, dad and aunt.
I love them all. I wish I had a family like that. Or a family at all for that matter. Never had one.
Gonna take my meds now and try and unwind.
Love to all.
Wednesday, July 9, 2014
It's heeeereeee....!!!
It feels like I've been waiting for this forever!
I'm SO EXCITED over this. The boys are.. They're just.. *sigh*.. Fantastic!
I'm just so freakin grateful for all the happy moments with these guys.
Especially Christopher. He's awesome.. Always puts me in a happy mood.
Just thinking that if I would have never gone to see the Backstreet Boys (I know, that would never happen but just go with me on this one) this spring, I wouldn't have ever met these guys.
I love promoting them, helping Bama and Matt with little things when I'm asked.
Love keeping the fans hyped.. Cause as they say themselves.. If it wasn't for ExchangeEurope, and now also ExchangersUnited.com, the hype would have died a long time ago.
"Thank you for keeping the hype in Europe". You are so more than welcome.
I enjoy every second of it.
Even tho I've had some hiccups.. issues, with some fans that have gone far beyond "the line"... I still take the bad with all the good. Cause the grater part of all this is pure sunshine!
I hope, and think that these guys will be around for a long time to come and that I will get to share many more laughs and adventures with them.
Jamal, Christopher, Richard, Aaron and Alfredo.. and Of course, Bama and Matt.. Y'all are great.
Don't ever forget to have fun. Cause the second you do.. It will show.. and the magic that is you guys, The Exchange.. will be gone. LOVE you!
I'm SO EXCITED over this. The boys are.. They're just.. *sigh*.. Fantastic!
I'm just so freakin grateful for all the happy moments with these guys.
Especially Christopher. He's awesome.. Always puts me in a happy mood.
Just thinking that if I would have never gone to see the Backstreet Boys (I know, that would never happen but just go with me on this one) this spring, I wouldn't have ever met these guys.
I love promoting them, helping Bama and Matt with little things when I'm asked.
Love keeping the fans hyped.. Cause as they say themselves.. If it wasn't for ExchangeEurope, and now also ExchangersUnited.com, the hype would have died a long time ago.
"Thank you for keeping the hype in Europe". You are so more than welcome.
I enjoy every second of it.
Even tho I've had some hiccups.. issues, with some fans that have gone far beyond "the line"... I still take the bad with all the good. Cause the grater part of all this is pure sunshine!
I hope, and think that these guys will be around for a long time to come and that I will get to share many more laughs and adventures with them.
Jamal, Christopher, Richard, Aaron and Alfredo.. and Of course, Bama and Matt.. Y'all are great.
Don't ever forget to have fun. Cause the second you do.. It will show.. and the magic that is you guys, The Exchange.. will be gone. LOVE you!
Don't forget to check out the video, share it with your friends on facebook and twitter.
Tell your neighbor, your teacher and your hamster about it to!
Thursday, July 3, 2014
It's been a.. strange day..
.. To say the least.
One could say that I have things going on in my life right now.
A bunch of things that I'd rather not have to deal with.
But such is life.. You deal with things on a daily basis that you rather not, but you do.. cause there is just no other way.
I answer hundreds of phone calls every day at work. Some are fun, some are less fun.
Customers with all different issues and requests. I treat them all differently, cause they are all.. different.
Today I answered the phone, just like every other day and a woman was on the other line.
She had me on speaker phone and she told me she had been doing the dishes while waiting for her call to be answered. She sounded happy and there was something really.. familiar about her.. comfortable if you will.
She proceeded to tell me her business and why she had called in and I went about my job, to help her.
She continues to talk and she's so friendly and funny.. one of those people you just instantly just.. love!
She asks out of the blue "You're a sensitive, aren't you?". As for you who don't know what a sensitive is, it's someone who senses "the other side". Dead people, or spirits. Call them what you want.
I answered her in some what of a surprised response that Yea.. I'm sort of sensitive to things like like.
I can sense things, but it's not like "I see dead people".
She tells me she knew it the second I picked up the phone.
She then continues to tell me that she is a sensitive and that she has "a man with her", from the other side.
She says he is connected to me. - "He is a tall man, very handsome. Do you have a man you know on the other side"
- Yes.. My dad, was a tall man. He would have been good looking cause he had kids with 4-5 different women.
- "Hmm.. I don't know, cause it doesn't feel like you would have a very close relationship to this man."
- Well that sounds about right as I never knew my dad. I never met him.
The woman laughs and says something a long the lines of "well that makes sense then, I guess I have you're dad here, he says congratulations"
Now I have no idea what that was for.. I have nothing to be congratulated for at the moment.. that I know of at least.. Maybe he knew something I don't.. yet?
She says - "I'm sorry, I'm gonna let you work, it's just that they are a talkative bunch of people I have with me here".
One.... Two... Three seconds passes and she starts talking again.
- "You have a girl sitting right behind you, a blonde girl".
I turn around to look who's behind me, even tho I already know who sits right behind me at work.
- Uhm... Yes... That would be Heidi!
Heidi is my best friend at work, we get along really well.
- "Tell her I said that she has a lot of bright spirit people, angels around her"
- ... Ok....
At this point I'm completely overwhelmed by her.
She again apologizes and tell me she's gonna let me do my job now.
One...Two...
- "I have you're grandmother here"
- MORMOR!! (Grandmother in Swedish) My mormor is the best!
- "She likes it that you said IS the best and not WAS the best"
- "Mormor wants you to know that everything is ok and that you need to let her go. You can't carry her around anymore."
- I have not let my mormor go yet, she was my world.
- "She knows this, but she doesn't want you to be sad, and mormor can't pass on as long as you hold on to her"
- ......
- "Mormor is showing me flowers which means "i love you" on the other side. She wants you to say hi to you're mother, she needs that"
Now.. My mother and I don't have a mother daughter relationship do to her putting me through hell as a child.. but I know my mother have been struggling lately with some decisions that had to be made.
- "It's really important to mormor that you tell you're mother, Hi"
- I will..
At this point I am crying. My mormor was my everything. My only family member. The only one I could go to when my mother was at her worst.. when i had not eaten in days or when I just needed.. someone.
When the call ended and I had to run out and burst in to tears.
I locked myself in the bathroom and just.. let it all out.
I was, and still am so overwhelmed by her.
There was many more aspects of this phone call, but things I'll rather not share.
I am so grateful to this woman for greeting me, being friendly and for sharing her gift with me.
It is something that I will never forget.
I am a firm believer in "the other side" and that we get visits from them, our loved ones, all the time.
I feel warm at heart by the thought of my mormor being with me.
Although I have felt her presence around me for many years.. This kind of.. sort of.. confirmed it, in a way. It was truly truly a special phonecall.
I hope you all are well out there.
xoxo
One could say that I have things going on in my life right now.
A bunch of things that I'd rather not have to deal with.
But such is life.. You deal with things on a daily basis that you rather not, but you do.. cause there is just no other way.
I answer hundreds of phone calls every day at work. Some are fun, some are less fun.
Customers with all different issues and requests. I treat them all differently, cause they are all.. different.
Today I answered the phone, just like every other day and a woman was on the other line.
She had me on speaker phone and she told me she had been doing the dishes while waiting for her call to be answered. She sounded happy and there was something really.. familiar about her.. comfortable if you will.
She proceeded to tell me her business and why she had called in and I went about my job, to help her.
She continues to talk and she's so friendly and funny.. one of those people you just instantly just.. love!
She asks out of the blue "You're a sensitive, aren't you?". As for you who don't know what a sensitive is, it's someone who senses "the other side". Dead people, or spirits. Call them what you want.
I answered her in some what of a surprised response that Yea.. I'm sort of sensitive to things like like.
I can sense things, but it's not like "I see dead people".
She tells me she knew it the second I picked up the phone.
She then continues to tell me that she is a sensitive and that she has "a man with her", from the other side.
She says he is connected to me. - "He is a tall man, very handsome. Do you have a man you know on the other side"
- Yes.. My dad, was a tall man. He would have been good looking cause he had kids with 4-5 different women.
- "Hmm.. I don't know, cause it doesn't feel like you would have a very close relationship to this man."
- Well that sounds about right as I never knew my dad. I never met him.
The woman laughs and says something a long the lines of "well that makes sense then, I guess I have you're dad here, he says congratulations"
Now I have no idea what that was for.. I have nothing to be congratulated for at the moment.. that I know of at least.. Maybe he knew something I don't.. yet?
She says - "I'm sorry, I'm gonna let you work, it's just that they are a talkative bunch of people I have with me here".
One.... Two... Three seconds passes and she starts talking again.
- "You have a girl sitting right behind you, a blonde girl".
I turn around to look who's behind me, even tho I already know who sits right behind me at work.
- Uhm... Yes... That would be Heidi!
Heidi is my best friend at work, we get along really well.
- "Tell her I said that she has a lot of bright spirit people, angels around her"
- ... Ok....
At this point I'm completely overwhelmed by her.
She again apologizes and tell me she's gonna let me do my job now.
One...Two...
- "I have you're grandmother here"
- MORMOR!! (Grandmother in Swedish) My mormor is the best!
- "She likes it that you said IS the best and not WAS the best"
- "Mormor wants you to know that everything is ok and that you need to let her go. You can't carry her around anymore."
- I have not let my mormor go yet, she was my world.
- "She knows this, but she doesn't want you to be sad, and mormor can't pass on as long as you hold on to her"
- ......
- "Mormor is showing me flowers which means "i love you" on the other side. She wants you to say hi to you're mother, she needs that"
Now.. My mother and I don't have a mother daughter relationship do to her putting me through hell as a child.. but I know my mother have been struggling lately with some decisions that had to be made.
- "It's really important to mormor that you tell you're mother, Hi"
- I will..
At this point I am crying. My mormor was my everything. My only family member. The only one I could go to when my mother was at her worst.. when i had not eaten in days or when I just needed.. someone.
When the call ended and I had to run out and burst in to tears.
I locked myself in the bathroom and just.. let it all out.
I was, and still am so overwhelmed by her.
There was many more aspects of this phone call, but things I'll rather not share.
I am so grateful to this woman for greeting me, being friendly and for sharing her gift with me.
It is something that I will never forget.
I am a firm believer in "the other side" and that we get visits from them, our loved ones, all the time.
I feel warm at heart by the thought of my mormor being with me.
Although I have felt her presence around me for many years.. This kind of.. sort of.. confirmed it, in a way. It was truly truly a special phonecall.
I hope you all are well out there.
xoxo
Tuesday, June 24, 2014
Give me strength
Help me
Figure out the difference
Between right and wrong
Weak and strong
Day and night
Where I belong and
Help me
Make the right decisions
Know which way to turn
Lessons to learn
And just what my purpose is here
Game Over.
.... And it happened again!
Officially closing my twitter & instagram. cleaning out fans from my twitter then I'm done with it.
I've tried to be nice and understanding of some of you but it's at the point right now when you're just pissing me off. I've dealt with some of you snatching my pictures off of my instagram, sending messages to my personal friends asking questions about my relationship to the boys, among other things.
I don't get it!! I'm just me! I'm no one to follow, look up to and DEFINITELY not suck up to!
I can see through that shit in a heartbeat.
Befriending me won't get you closer to the boys.
I don't even understand where you are getting all this from.
Even if I could get you closer to the boys, I won't.
It's not up to me to decide who they want to talk to and who they don't want to talk to.
And if I know the boys right, and I think I do.
They will be happy to talk to every single one of you as long as you're nice.
It's sad that it's come to this. I was looking forward to meeting some of you in Germany but right now.. I don't feel like meeting you at all.
I will be traveling with my girls and those are the only people I want to associate with on this trip.
I will keep running ExchangeEurope and Co-Admin with Tess on ExchangersUnited.com but as far anything regarding my personal accounts. It will be off limit.
I wish that you will respect this from now on.
Lindah
Officially closing my twitter & instagram. cleaning out fans from my twitter then I'm done with it.
I've tried to be nice and understanding of some of you but it's at the point right now when you're just pissing me off. I've dealt with some of you snatching my pictures off of my instagram, sending messages to my personal friends asking questions about my relationship to the boys, among other things.
I don't get it!! I'm just me! I'm no one to follow, look up to and DEFINITELY not suck up to!
I can see through that shit in a heartbeat.
Befriending me won't get you closer to the boys.
I don't even understand where you are getting all this from.
Even if I could get you closer to the boys, I won't.
It's not up to me to decide who they want to talk to and who they don't want to talk to.
And if I know the boys right, and I think I do.
They will be happy to talk to every single one of you as long as you're nice.
It's sad that it's come to this. I was looking forward to meeting some of you in Germany but right now.. I don't feel like meeting you at all.
I will be traveling with my girls and those are the only people I want to associate with on this trip.
I will keep running ExchangeEurope and Co-Admin with Tess on ExchangersUnited.com but as far anything regarding my personal accounts. It will be off limit.
I wish that you will respect this from now on.
Lindah
Monday, June 23, 2014
Euphoria
I'm in some kind of Euphoric state of mine. It's SUCH an awesome feeling.Things are just clearing up. I walk around smiling, humming on my favorite Disney movie songs and.. I guess.. Feel like I might even be in one of them movies.
I LOOOOVE my job and the people I work with!
I LOOOOVE my #SpecialFriends and my favorite Norwegian-broken-butt-nut-cracker!
I have a MAJOR crush on all of my beautiful friends and I just feel.. Like i'm breathing again.
It's been a while since I felt like this, I hope it will last a while so I can catch my breath a lil.
I'm SO excited to see the guys in Germany in just a few weeks.
These months since when we first started talking about going just FLEW by!
Anyways.. I just wanted to drop in real quick.
Working late this week so I JUST got home, am gonna watch an episode of Game Of Thrones then SLEEEEP. Am gonna TRY to muster some discipline and get my butt to the gym in the morning before work. Watch......... !
LOVE
Sunday, June 22, 2014
Thursday, June 19, 2014
Thoughts
You know.. I was laying awake last night thinking about.. Guys.. But not in that way.. More like.. I'm the "always single" chick among my friends.. Not always by choice.
I haven't always been the most.. "desirable" girl in the world.. and I haven't always looked at my self and thought I deserved to have someone.
I've gotten burned.. Oh so burned.
And I haven't really gotten involved with someone after that whole thing went down..
Most of you know that "situation", as THAT guy.
I truuuuuly loved him and it went to hell.. and back.. and then to hell again.
It took a lot out of me and I don't really think I've truly fully recovered from it.
I still panic at the though of getting comfortable around a guy again. I just.. I can't.
It's gonna take a lot for me to relax and let someone in.
They will have to be someone truly special.. and patient. VERY patient.
I know I'm worth it.. I LOVE spoiling my guy.. doing things for him, not cause he asks me to.. but cause I want to. Love having someone to come home to..
That thought when you get out of work for the day and you just wanna hurry home, because HE is there. That feeling! I long for it.
But.. I've come to the conclusion that I somewhat stay away from dating cause.. This might sound and be dumb, but it's the thruth.. and that's cause of drugs.
I am so ZERO tolerance towards drugs that it just makes dating to complicated to deal with.
I mean.. for example.. a few months ago I was out with my good friend Jasmi.
We're sitting at a table, minding our own and then a group of guys approach us.
They all seam very nice so we invite them to join us.
We're talkin and having fun and then one of the guys turns to me and starts talking about what kind of drugs he took while getting ready to go out........... Dude... No.
He continues to ask me what I take and what my drug of choice is.
My point is.. drugs have become such an "accepted" thing among us.. so I just don't wanna even bother trying to find a good guy, just a normal, family oriented guy with both his feet on the ground.. who does NOT do drugs. Of any kind.
I've been "surprised" with guys before.. dating them for a while and then finding out from other people that they're using. I just don't wanna go through that again.. I'm guarded and it has lead to me having a very hard time trusting guys.. Which is sad.. cause I wan't to love and be loved.. but it's just... to frighting.
I haven't always been the most.. "desirable" girl in the world.. and I haven't always looked at my self and thought I deserved to have someone.
I've gotten burned.. Oh so burned.
And I haven't really gotten involved with someone after that whole thing went down..
Most of you know that "situation", as THAT guy.
I truuuuuly loved him and it went to hell.. and back.. and then to hell again.
It took a lot out of me and I don't really think I've truly fully recovered from it.
I still panic at the though of getting comfortable around a guy again. I just.. I can't.
It's gonna take a lot for me to relax and let someone in.
They will have to be someone truly special.. and patient. VERY patient.
I know I'm worth it.. I LOVE spoiling my guy.. doing things for him, not cause he asks me to.. but cause I want to. Love having someone to come home to..
That thought when you get out of work for the day and you just wanna hurry home, because HE is there. That feeling! I long for it.
But.. I've come to the conclusion that I somewhat stay away from dating cause.. This might sound and be dumb, but it's the thruth.. and that's cause of drugs.
I am so ZERO tolerance towards drugs that it just makes dating to complicated to deal with.
I mean.. for example.. a few months ago I was out with my good friend Jasmi.
We're sitting at a table, minding our own and then a group of guys approach us.
They all seam very nice so we invite them to join us.
We're talkin and having fun and then one of the guys turns to me and starts talking about what kind of drugs he took while getting ready to go out........... Dude... No.
He continues to ask me what I take and what my drug of choice is.
My point is.. drugs have become such an "accepted" thing among us.. so I just don't wanna even bother trying to find a good guy, just a normal, family oriented guy with both his feet on the ground.. who does NOT do drugs. Of any kind.
I've been "surprised" with guys before.. dating them for a while and then finding out from other people that they're using. I just don't wanna go through that again.. I'm guarded and it has lead to me having a very hard time trusting guys.. Which is sad.. cause I wan't to love and be loved.. but it's just... to frighting.
Wednesday, June 18, 2014
Tuesday, June 17, 2014
Exchange Backstreet Direction
Soooo.. I guess I've been missing in action for a while.
Been a tad busy with life.
New job, new projects and other fun adventures.
This weekend I was off to Stockholm to see One Direction live in concert.
I've waited a LONG-ASS-TIME to see these guys in concert.
I met one of the boys before but back then i didn't even know who he was and couldn't have cared less.
Let's just say I'm kicking myself for that now. Hard.
I've since then come to understand just how fun these guys are!
Sure.. I love the Backstreet Boys, and they will ALWAYS be my number one..
But Thats all heart.. One Direction is all fun.
I'm not even gonna put The Exchange in the same category as the other two.
First off cause it's kind of hard for me to see them as a "boy band".
They're so different. And also cause they are more or less my friends.
Especially Diaz. I do not see him as.. anything other than a friend.
So I guess you could say.. They mean more to me than "just music".
I've been helping Bama out with some, I guess.. Pre-Promo stuff for the boys.
Gathering info on radio stations.
Happy place for sure. I LOVE doing stuff like that.
I've studied media for far to long not to put it in to use when needed.
Hopefully I'll get to help some more, should they need it. Even if it means little things.. I'd be honored.
I've been missing the boys allot lately.
Maybe especially Aaron. We used to tweet every day before.. now I haven't talked to him in a month.
He was such happy distraction for me to go to when I needed to put my focus on something while anxiety struck.
It's been hard to keep focus and I'm unfortunately back on my meds.
Trying to find something solid to keep my head above water is hard, which is also why I'm so willing and grateful to help the boys out with things.. It keeps me busy and distracted enough to not feel that anxiety.
Hopefully will find something soon to keep me smiling.
Untill next time my loves.. Behave!
Been a tad busy with life.
New job, new projects and other fun adventures.
This weekend I was off to Stockholm to see One Direction live in concert.
I've waited a LONG-ASS-TIME to see these guys in concert.
I met one of the boys before but back then i didn't even know who he was and couldn't have cared less.
Let's just say I'm kicking myself for that now. Hard.
I've since then come to understand just how fun these guys are!
Sure.. I love the Backstreet Boys, and they will ALWAYS be my number one..
But Thats all heart.. One Direction is all fun.
I'm not even gonna put The Exchange in the same category as the other two.
First off cause it's kind of hard for me to see them as a "boy band".
They're so different. And also cause they are more or less my friends.
Especially Diaz. I do not see him as.. anything other than a friend.
So I guess you could say.. They mean more to me than "just music".
I've been helping Bama out with some, I guess.. Pre-Promo stuff for the boys.
Gathering info on radio stations.
Happy place for sure. I LOVE doing stuff like that.
I've studied media for far to long not to put it in to use when needed.
Hopefully I'll get to help some more, should they need it. Even if it means little things.. I'd be honored.
I've been missing the boys allot lately.
Maybe especially Aaron. We used to tweet every day before.. now I haven't talked to him in a month.
He was such happy distraction for me to go to when I needed to put my focus on something while anxiety struck.
It's been hard to keep focus and I'm unfortunately back on my meds.
Trying to find something solid to keep my head above water is hard, which is also why I'm so willing and grateful to help the boys out with things.. It keeps me busy and distracted enough to not feel that anxiety.
Hopefully will find something soon to keep me smiling.
Untill next time my loves.. Behave!
Sunday, June 1, 2014
Bla bla bla
It is Sunday. Where did this weekend go?
Good thing I love my job and can't wait to get back there tomorrow.
This weekend have been good. Chilled on Friday cause i was DEAD after the cruise with the girls.
Last night was Dani's Birthday bash. Was sooo much fun and also got to meet and make up with an old friend with whom I had a falling out with a few years back.
We have not spoken since and it was nice to finally work things out.
She, as well as I have changed a lot in these past few years.
She's had 2 kids since then and is about to get married.
It is now June.. And that means that NEXT MONTH.. I will get to see the boys again.
I am looking forward to this trip way, way to much! Honestly mostly looking forward to seeing Christopher.
I absolutely adore that guy.
Have loads of fun things planned before it's time for Germany tho.
Like in two weeks.. It will be time to see One Direction in concert. I CAN NOT WAIT!!
Harry Styles.. I mean.. Harry Styles... *Swooning*
And as I'm just rambling on about BS now.. I'm gonna wrap it up and leave y'all with some pictures from the cruise with the girls.
LOVE!
Good thing I love my job and can't wait to get back there tomorrow.
This weekend have been good. Chilled on Friday cause i was DEAD after the cruise with the girls.
Last night was Dani's Birthday bash. Was sooo much fun and also got to meet and make up with an old friend with whom I had a falling out with a few years back.
We have not spoken since and it was nice to finally work things out.
She, as well as I have changed a lot in these past few years.
She's had 2 kids since then and is about to get married.
It is now June.. And that means that NEXT MONTH.. I will get to see the boys again.
I am looking forward to this trip way, way to much! Honestly mostly looking forward to seeing Christopher.
I absolutely adore that guy.
Have loads of fun things planned before it's time for Germany tho.
Like in two weeks.. It will be time to see One Direction in concert. I CAN NOT WAIT!!
Harry Styles.. I mean.. Harry Styles... *Swooning*
And as I'm just rambling on about BS now.. I'm gonna wrap it up and leave y'all with some pictures from the cruise with the girls.
LOVE!
Friday, May 30, 2014
Departed
When your life is going to fast,
off the train tracks
I can slow it down
just when you think you're bout to turn back
scared you might crash
I'll be your ground
When you feel your hearts guarded,
And you see the brakes started,
And when the clouds above Departed,
You'll be right here with me,
And when your tears are dry from crying,
And when the worlds turned silent,
So when the clouds above Departed,
You will be right here with me,
When your trapped and there's just no key,
And you can't breathe,
I breathe for you,
The fire's got you down on both knees,
The walls are closing in but I will,
Break them through,
And when you feel alone,
I will be your home,
Whatever comes and goes,
You know I got you
Monday, May 26, 2014
Exchangers
Before bedtime.. I just wanted to remind all of you minions that, you guys are awesome!
You definitely make me smile every day with your sweet messages.
I am honored and blessed to be receiving all this love from all over Europe.
You definitely make me smile every day with your sweet messages.
I am honored and blessed to be receiving all this love from all over Europe.
I am doing the best that I can to keep you happy and smiling, reading all of your tweets, messages and PM's.
I read every single one of them. Thank you.
I read every single one of them. Thank you.
And Thank you for having all this faith and trust in me!
Mwaaah! xoxo
Mwaaah! xoxo
Sunday, May 25, 2014
Germany is BOOKED!
I am so excited!
Me and the girls just booked our trip to Germany for this summer.
I can seriously not wait. It will be sooo good see the boys again.
I'm mostly excited to see Christopher in all honesty. He's such a fantastic guy!
Obviously excited to see the other 4 guys also, and Matt! Let's not forget Matt!
Was contacted today by an Exchange fan about working on a new project for the boys.
And of course I'm down for that.
I truly love helping all of you out with projects and what not, that's what I'm here for.
Will be fun to see how this develops.
I love getting all of you're sweet messages of concern and support.
And I don't judge all of y'all cause some fans can't behave. Not at all so no worries.
So keep throwing ideas at me, I am more than willing to collaborate and help.
Tomorrow is monday and that means, WORK!
I could seriously not be more excited. Ha!
Love my new job and my colleagues, I've found a few diamonds in our group that I really enjoy.
It will definitely be a fun summer at work. And if we all get to stay after summer.. AWESOOOME!
Anyways.. Am off to watch a movie and then sleep time for me.
xoxo
Me and the girls just booked our trip to Germany for this summer.
I can seriously not wait. It will be sooo good see the boys again.
I'm mostly excited to see Christopher in all honesty. He's such a fantastic guy!
Obviously excited to see the other 4 guys also, and Matt! Let's not forget Matt!
Was contacted today by an Exchange fan about working on a new project for the boys.
And of course I'm down for that.
I truly love helping all of you out with projects and what not, that's what I'm here for.
Will be fun to see how this develops.
I love getting all of you're sweet messages of concern and support.
And I don't judge all of y'all cause some fans can't behave. Not at all so no worries.
So keep throwing ideas at me, I am more than willing to collaborate and help.
Tomorrow is monday and that means, WORK!
I could seriously not be more excited. Ha!
Love my new job and my colleagues, I've found a few diamonds in our group that I really enjoy.
It will definitely be a fun summer at work. And if we all get to stay after summer.. AWESOOOME!
Anyways.. Am off to watch a movie and then sleep time for me.
 |
| Thanks Laura for the kind words! |
xoxo
Friday, May 23, 2014
Bat Shit Crazy
It's been a pretty crazy week.
Good and bad kind of crazy. First week at my new job is done and I'm loving it so far.
Found a really sweet friend in one of the girls in my group.
Regarding another thing... or things, that happened this weekend was pretty clear in a previous entry i did this week. About privacy. It took about 24hrs before crazy turned around and bit me again.
I don't even know what to say or where to start really.. But I am seriously uncomfortable.
Cleaned out a few ppl off my facebook friendlist.. like 4ppl that i took off so facebook i've been pretty good with keeping clean.. but Twitter.... There's just no way I can clean that shit up.
And If I make a new one.. private.. and I don't get the boys to follow me on there.. I won't be able to talk to them.. :(
Christopher I have on facebook so that's all good.. but.. It would be nice to be able to throw a tweet at them every now and then.. which I won't be able to do if I have to make a new account. Ugh..
So sad that a few of the girls have to ruin it for the rest of them.
They've made me even... not so excited about Germany this summer.
A lot of them are flying in for the boys gig at Europa Park in august..
And at first I was excited to get to meet these girls.. But now... not so much.
Depending on who's coming obviously.. most of the girls are wonderful.
But then there's these other ones..
I don't even know why I'm so surprised.
These are Backstreet Boys fans we're talking about.
And Backstreet fans are, as Madelene would so graciously put it, bat shit crazy.
I just.. didn't see this one coming.
One of them said "You're just as famous as the boys now". Fuuuuck that shit.
I am NOT doing ANY of this to get recognition or anything of that sort.
I am doing this for the boys, and for the Exchangers cause I like it, it's fun and it brings me joy to make other people happy. Nowhere in this universe did I do any of it to make myself look good.
No.. Wrong. So the thought of anyone thinking of me in any other way than just a normal girl.. is overwhelming.. Not gonna lie.
Gonna try and sleep now.
Keep smiling, lovers!
Good and bad kind of crazy. First week at my new job is done and I'm loving it so far.
Found a really sweet friend in one of the girls in my group.
Regarding another thing... or things, that happened this weekend was pretty clear in a previous entry i did this week. About privacy. It took about 24hrs before crazy turned around and bit me again.
I don't even know what to say or where to start really.. But I am seriously uncomfortable.
Cleaned out a few ppl off my facebook friendlist.. like 4ppl that i took off so facebook i've been pretty good with keeping clean.. but Twitter.... There's just no way I can clean that shit up.
And If I make a new one.. private.. and I don't get the boys to follow me on there.. I won't be able to talk to them.. :(
Christopher I have on facebook so that's all good.. but.. It would be nice to be able to throw a tweet at them every now and then.. which I won't be able to do if I have to make a new account. Ugh..
So sad that a few of the girls have to ruin it for the rest of them.
They've made me even... not so excited about Germany this summer.
A lot of them are flying in for the boys gig at Europa Park in august..
And at first I was excited to get to meet these girls.. But now... not so much.
Depending on who's coming obviously.. most of the girls are wonderful.
But then there's these other ones..
I don't even know why I'm so surprised.
These are Backstreet Boys fans we're talking about.
And Backstreet fans are, as Madelene would so graciously put it, bat shit crazy.
I just.. didn't see this one coming.
One of them said "You're just as famous as the boys now". Fuuuuck that shit.
I am NOT doing ANY of this to get recognition or anything of that sort.
I am doing this for the boys, and for the Exchangers cause I like it, it's fun and it brings me joy to make other people happy. Nowhere in this universe did I do any of it to make myself look good.
No.. Wrong. So the thought of anyone thinking of me in any other way than just a normal girl.. is overwhelming.. Not gonna lie.
Gonna try and sleep now.
Keep smiling, lovers!
Wednesday, May 21, 2014
Birthday Boy!!
I want to wish the fantastic Jamal a VERY happy birthday!
I hope you get to spend your day surrounded by all your favorite people!
Enjoy!
xoxo
One bad apple
It's an absolutely GORGEOUS day out!
I just got home from my third day at my new job.
I'm really enjoying it so far. The only thing i'm NOT so crazy about is having to get up at 4am every day.
Rough, real rough.
Regarding yesterdays entry.
I've gotten sooo many positive responses from you gorgeous people.
99% of you guys understand fully and support me all the way.
You know what they say.. one bad apple don't spoil a whole bunch.
You guys are awesome, you really are and it's gonna be fun seeing some of you this summer in Germany.
Thank you for all the sweet messages and tweets yesterday.
I know I didn't respond to everyone but some days it's just about impossible for me to keep up.
You guys are over 500 and I'm one person lol.. You do the math :)
XOXO
I just got home from my third day at my new job.
I'm really enjoying it so far. The only thing i'm NOT so crazy about is having to get up at 4am every day.
Rough, real rough.
Regarding yesterdays entry.
I've gotten sooo many positive responses from you gorgeous people.
99% of you guys understand fully and support me all the way.
You know what they say.. one bad apple don't spoil a whole bunch.
You guys are awesome, you really are and it's gonna be fun seeing some of you this summer in Germany.
Thank you for all the sweet messages and tweets yesterday.
I know I didn't respond to everyone but some days it's just about impossible for me to keep up.
You guys are over 500 and I'm one person lol.. You do the math :)
XOXO
Tuesday, May 20, 2014
Privacy
I feel that I ones again need to address something.
It's hard for me to express myself regarding this cause I don't really know how to, without sounding like a compete drama queen or a bitch.
But the fact of the matter is that I am getting really overwhelmed.
I love all of you Exchangers and appreciate all the love and support you are showing me, as well as for the group and the site (ExchangeEurope & ExhangersUniter).
I enjoy talking to you and hearing about your day, your ideas and thoughts of the boys.
I do.. But there is a line that can't be crossed and that's when it comes to privacy.
I have had to set my instagram and twitter to private before and I don't wanna go back to that but if boundaries keeps getting crossed I will have to.
I want to share my day with you all and update my instagram with pictures of my everyday life.
But please, don't use my pictures without asking me first.
And when it comes to my facebook, I have been bombarded with friend requests these past few weeks, and I am flattered that you guys want to be friends, but it comes down to the fact that I am a very private person and there's a lot of personal things on my facebook so if I don't know you personally, I ask that you keep it to instagram and twitter.
I am happy to talk to you on there as long as you are respectful.
I don't mean for you to not talk to me or contact me at all.. just.. give me a little privacy and space.
I understand that you all are really excited over the boys and their European plans.
I'm glad that you are, but please don't ask me for personal information on the boys, a lot of the things that you are asking for I can not answer, and the things I can answer that would be considered their private life, I will still not share with you cause it is not my information to share. Please respect that.
I love it that you guys contact me with ideas and projects that you have and want me to be a part of or help you with, I am more than happy to help you guys with things like that, so don't feel intimidated to keep contacting me about things like that.
I hope this will help establish a more, how can I put it..
Healthy and less stressful relationship between me and you all.
Keep being fantastic, keep spreading the love and support just like you have been doing, but keep in mind, I am just one person and It's hard for me to keep up with you all so if it takes a little while for me to get back to you, don't stress, I'll get around to it. Promise.
I love you guys SOOOO much, and I hope that you will not take this entry in a negative manner.
I am simply trying to help our relationship so it can work more smoothly.
I hope you all are having a fantastic day.
Much Love.
xoxo Lindah
ExchangeEurope
Admin: Me
Co-Admin: Tiina
&
ExchangersUnited
It's hard for me to express myself regarding this cause I don't really know how to, without sounding like a compete drama queen or a bitch.
But the fact of the matter is that I am getting really overwhelmed.
I love all of you Exchangers and appreciate all the love and support you are showing me, as well as for the group and the site (ExchangeEurope & ExhangersUniter).
I enjoy talking to you and hearing about your day, your ideas and thoughts of the boys.
I do.. But there is a line that can't be crossed and that's when it comes to privacy.
I have had to set my instagram and twitter to private before and I don't wanna go back to that but if boundaries keeps getting crossed I will have to.
I want to share my day with you all and update my instagram with pictures of my everyday life.
But please, don't use my pictures without asking me first.
And when it comes to my facebook, I have been bombarded with friend requests these past few weeks, and I am flattered that you guys want to be friends, but it comes down to the fact that I am a very private person and there's a lot of personal things on my facebook so if I don't know you personally, I ask that you keep it to instagram and twitter.
I am happy to talk to you on there as long as you are respectful.
I don't mean for you to not talk to me or contact me at all.. just.. give me a little privacy and space.
I understand that you all are really excited over the boys and their European plans.
I'm glad that you are, but please don't ask me for personal information on the boys, a lot of the things that you are asking for I can not answer, and the things I can answer that would be considered their private life, I will still not share with you cause it is not my information to share. Please respect that.
I love it that you guys contact me with ideas and projects that you have and want me to be a part of or help you with, I am more than happy to help you guys with things like that, so don't feel intimidated to keep contacting me about things like that.
I hope this will help establish a more, how can I put it..
Healthy and less stressful relationship between me and you all.
Keep being fantastic, keep spreading the love and support just like you have been doing, but keep in mind, I am just one person and It's hard for me to keep up with you all so if it takes a little while for me to get back to you, don't stress, I'll get around to it. Promise.
I love you guys SOOOO much, and I hope that you will not take this entry in a negative manner.
I am simply trying to help our relationship so it can work more smoothly.
I hope you all are having a fantastic day.
Much Love.
xoxo Lindah
ExchangeEurope
Admin: Me
Co-Admin: Tiina
&
ExchangersUnited
Webmaster: Therese
Co-Webmaster: Me
Co-Webmaster: Me
ExchangeEurope and ExchangersUnited are two seperate things.
ExchangeEurope backs and supports ExchangersUnited and the other way around, but they are not the same.
ExchangeEurope backs and supports ExchangersUnited and the other way around, but they are not the same.
See ExchangersUnited more of an extension of ExchangeEurope.
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