Help me
Figure out the difference
Between right and wrong
Weak and strong
Day and night
Where I belong and
Help me
Make the right decisions
Know which way to turn
Lessons to learn
And just what my purpose is here
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Tuesday, June 24, 2014
Game Over.
.... And it happened again!
Officially closing my twitter & instagram. cleaning out fans from my twitter then I'm done with it.
I've tried to be nice and understanding of some of you but it's at the point right now when you're just pissing me off. I've dealt with some of you snatching my pictures off of my instagram, sending messages to my personal friends asking questions about my relationship to the boys, among other things.
I don't get it!! I'm just me! I'm no one to follow, look up to and DEFINITELY not suck up to!
I can see through that shit in a heartbeat.
Befriending me won't get you closer to the boys.
I don't even understand where you are getting all this from.
Even if I could get you closer to the boys, I won't.
It's not up to me to decide who they want to talk to and who they don't want to talk to.
And if I know the boys right, and I think I do.
They will be happy to talk to every single one of you as long as you're nice.
It's sad that it's come to this. I was looking forward to meeting some of you in Germany but right now.. I don't feel like meeting you at all.
I will be traveling with my girls and those are the only people I want to associate with on this trip.
I will keep running ExchangeEurope and Co-Admin with Tess on ExchangersUnited.com but as far anything regarding my personal accounts. It will be off limit.
I wish that you will respect this from now on.
Lindah
Officially closing my twitter & instagram. cleaning out fans from my twitter then I'm done with it.
I've tried to be nice and understanding of some of you but it's at the point right now when you're just pissing me off. I've dealt with some of you snatching my pictures off of my instagram, sending messages to my personal friends asking questions about my relationship to the boys, among other things.
I don't get it!! I'm just me! I'm no one to follow, look up to and DEFINITELY not suck up to!
I can see through that shit in a heartbeat.
Befriending me won't get you closer to the boys.
I don't even understand where you are getting all this from.
Even if I could get you closer to the boys, I won't.
It's not up to me to decide who they want to talk to and who they don't want to talk to.
And if I know the boys right, and I think I do.
They will be happy to talk to every single one of you as long as you're nice.
It's sad that it's come to this. I was looking forward to meeting some of you in Germany but right now.. I don't feel like meeting you at all.
I will be traveling with my girls and those are the only people I want to associate with on this trip.
I will keep running ExchangeEurope and Co-Admin with Tess on ExchangersUnited.com but as far anything regarding my personal accounts. It will be off limit.
I wish that you will respect this from now on.
Lindah
Monday, June 23, 2014
Euphoria
I'm in some kind of Euphoric state of mine. It's SUCH an awesome feeling.Things are just clearing up. I walk around smiling, humming on my favorite Disney movie songs and.. I guess.. Feel like I might even be in one of them movies.
I LOOOOVE my job and the people I work with!
I LOOOOVE my #SpecialFriends and my favorite Norwegian-broken-butt-nut-cracker!
I have a MAJOR crush on all of my beautiful friends and I just feel.. Like i'm breathing again.
It's been a while since I felt like this, I hope it will last a while so I can catch my breath a lil.
I'm SO excited to see the guys in Germany in just a few weeks.
These months since when we first started talking about going just FLEW by!
Anyways.. I just wanted to drop in real quick.
Working late this week so I JUST got home, am gonna watch an episode of Game Of Thrones then SLEEEEP. Am gonna TRY to muster some discipline and get my butt to the gym in the morning before work. Watch......... !
LOVE
Sunday, June 22, 2014
Thursday, June 19, 2014
Thoughts
You know.. I was laying awake last night thinking about.. Guys.. But not in that way.. More like.. I'm the "always single" chick among my friends.. Not always by choice.
I haven't always been the most.. "desirable" girl in the world.. and I haven't always looked at my self and thought I deserved to have someone.
I've gotten burned.. Oh so burned.
And I haven't really gotten involved with someone after that whole thing went down..
Most of you know that "situation", as THAT guy.
I truuuuuly loved him and it went to hell.. and back.. and then to hell again.
It took a lot out of me and I don't really think I've truly fully recovered from it.
I still panic at the though of getting comfortable around a guy again. I just.. I can't.
It's gonna take a lot for me to relax and let someone in.
They will have to be someone truly special.. and patient. VERY patient.
I know I'm worth it.. I LOVE spoiling my guy.. doing things for him, not cause he asks me to.. but cause I want to. Love having someone to come home to..
That thought when you get out of work for the day and you just wanna hurry home, because HE is there. That feeling! I long for it.
But.. I've come to the conclusion that I somewhat stay away from dating cause.. This might sound and be dumb, but it's the thruth.. and that's cause of drugs.
I am so ZERO tolerance towards drugs that it just makes dating to complicated to deal with.
I mean.. for example.. a few months ago I was out with my good friend Jasmi.
We're sitting at a table, minding our own and then a group of guys approach us.
They all seam very nice so we invite them to join us.
We're talkin and having fun and then one of the guys turns to me and starts talking about what kind of drugs he took while getting ready to go out........... Dude... No.
He continues to ask me what I take and what my drug of choice is.
My point is.. drugs have become such an "accepted" thing among us.. so I just don't wanna even bother trying to find a good guy, just a normal, family oriented guy with both his feet on the ground.. who does NOT do drugs. Of any kind.
I've been "surprised" with guys before.. dating them for a while and then finding out from other people that they're using. I just don't wanna go through that again.. I'm guarded and it has lead to me having a very hard time trusting guys.. Which is sad.. cause I wan't to love and be loved.. but it's just... to frighting.
I haven't always been the most.. "desirable" girl in the world.. and I haven't always looked at my self and thought I deserved to have someone.
I've gotten burned.. Oh so burned.
And I haven't really gotten involved with someone after that whole thing went down..
Most of you know that "situation", as THAT guy.
I truuuuuly loved him and it went to hell.. and back.. and then to hell again.
It took a lot out of me and I don't really think I've truly fully recovered from it.
I still panic at the though of getting comfortable around a guy again. I just.. I can't.
It's gonna take a lot for me to relax and let someone in.
They will have to be someone truly special.. and patient. VERY patient.
I know I'm worth it.. I LOVE spoiling my guy.. doing things for him, not cause he asks me to.. but cause I want to. Love having someone to come home to..
That thought when you get out of work for the day and you just wanna hurry home, because HE is there. That feeling! I long for it.
But.. I've come to the conclusion that I somewhat stay away from dating cause.. This might sound and be dumb, but it's the thruth.. and that's cause of drugs.
I am so ZERO tolerance towards drugs that it just makes dating to complicated to deal with.
I mean.. for example.. a few months ago I was out with my good friend Jasmi.
We're sitting at a table, minding our own and then a group of guys approach us.
They all seam very nice so we invite them to join us.
We're talkin and having fun and then one of the guys turns to me and starts talking about what kind of drugs he took while getting ready to go out........... Dude... No.
He continues to ask me what I take and what my drug of choice is.
My point is.. drugs have become such an "accepted" thing among us.. so I just don't wanna even bother trying to find a good guy, just a normal, family oriented guy with both his feet on the ground.. who does NOT do drugs. Of any kind.
I've been "surprised" with guys before.. dating them for a while and then finding out from other people that they're using. I just don't wanna go through that again.. I'm guarded and it has lead to me having a very hard time trusting guys.. Which is sad.. cause I wan't to love and be loved.. but it's just... to frighting.
Wednesday, June 18, 2014
Tuesday, June 17, 2014
Exchange Backstreet Direction
Soooo.. I guess I've been missing in action for a while.
Been a tad busy with life.
New job, new projects and other fun adventures.
This weekend I was off to Stockholm to see One Direction live in concert.
I've waited a LONG-ASS-TIME to see these guys in concert.
I met one of the boys before but back then i didn't even know who he was and couldn't have cared less.
Let's just say I'm kicking myself for that now. Hard.
I've since then come to understand just how fun these guys are!
Sure.. I love the Backstreet Boys, and they will ALWAYS be my number one..
But Thats all heart.. One Direction is all fun.
I'm not even gonna put The Exchange in the same category as the other two.
First off cause it's kind of hard for me to see them as a "boy band".
They're so different. And also cause they are more or less my friends.
Especially Diaz. I do not see him as.. anything other than a friend.
So I guess you could say.. They mean more to me than "just music".
I've been helping Bama out with some, I guess.. Pre-Promo stuff for the boys.
Gathering info on radio stations.
Happy place for sure. I LOVE doing stuff like that.
I've studied media for far to long not to put it in to use when needed.
Hopefully I'll get to help some more, should they need it. Even if it means little things.. I'd be honored.
I've been missing the boys allot lately.
Maybe especially Aaron. We used to tweet every day before.. now I haven't talked to him in a month.
He was such happy distraction for me to go to when I needed to put my focus on something while anxiety struck.
It's been hard to keep focus and I'm unfortunately back on my meds.
Trying to find something solid to keep my head above water is hard, which is also why I'm so willing and grateful to help the boys out with things.. It keeps me busy and distracted enough to not feel that anxiety.
Hopefully will find something soon to keep me smiling.
Untill next time my loves.. Behave!
Been a tad busy with life.
New job, new projects and other fun adventures.
This weekend I was off to Stockholm to see One Direction live in concert.
I've waited a LONG-ASS-TIME to see these guys in concert.
I met one of the boys before but back then i didn't even know who he was and couldn't have cared less.
Let's just say I'm kicking myself for that now. Hard.
I've since then come to understand just how fun these guys are!
Sure.. I love the Backstreet Boys, and they will ALWAYS be my number one..
But Thats all heart.. One Direction is all fun.
I'm not even gonna put The Exchange in the same category as the other two.
First off cause it's kind of hard for me to see them as a "boy band".
They're so different. And also cause they are more or less my friends.
Especially Diaz. I do not see him as.. anything other than a friend.
So I guess you could say.. They mean more to me than "just music".
I've been helping Bama out with some, I guess.. Pre-Promo stuff for the boys.
Gathering info on radio stations.
Happy place for sure. I LOVE doing stuff like that.
I've studied media for far to long not to put it in to use when needed.
Hopefully I'll get to help some more, should they need it. Even if it means little things.. I'd be honored.
I've been missing the boys allot lately.
Maybe especially Aaron. We used to tweet every day before.. now I haven't talked to him in a month.
He was such happy distraction for me to go to when I needed to put my focus on something while anxiety struck.
It's been hard to keep focus and I'm unfortunately back on my meds.
Trying to find something solid to keep my head above water is hard, which is also why I'm so willing and grateful to help the boys out with things.. It keeps me busy and distracted enough to not feel that anxiety.
Hopefully will find something soon to keep me smiling.
Untill next time my loves.. Behave!
Sunday, June 1, 2014
Bla bla bla
It is Sunday. Where did this weekend go?
Good thing I love my job and can't wait to get back there tomorrow.
This weekend have been good. Chilled on Friday cause i was DEAD after the cruise with the girls.
Last night was Dani's Birthday bash. Was sooo much fun and also got to meet and make up with an old friend with whom I had a falling out with a few years back.
We have not spoken since and it was nice to finally work things out.
She, as well as I have changed a lot in these past few years.
She's had 2 kids since then and is about to get married.
It is now June.. And that means that NEXT MONTH.. I will get to see the boys again.
I am looking forward to this trip way, way to much! Honestly mostly looking forward to seeing Christopher.
I absolutely adore that guy.
Have loads of fun things planned before it's time for Germany tho.
Like in two weeks.. It will be time to see One Direction in concert. I CAN NOT WAIT!!
Harry Styles.. I mean.. Harry Styles... *Swooning*
And as I'm just rambling on about BS now.. I'm gonna wrap it up and leave y'all with some pictures from the cruise with the girls.
LOVE!
Good thing I love my job and can't wait to get back there tomorrow.
This weekend have been good. Chilled on Friday cause i was DEAD after the cruise with the girls.
Last night was Dani's Birthday bash. Was sooo much fun and also got to meet and make up with an old friend with whom I had a falling out with a few years back.
We have not spoken since and it was nice to finally work things out.
She, as well as I have changed a lot in these past few years.
She's had 2 kids since then and is about to get married.
It is now June.. And that means that NEXT MONTH.. I will get to see the boys again.
I am looking forward to this trip way, way to much! Honestly mostly looking forward to seeing Christopher.
I absolutely adore that guy.
Have loads of fun things planned before it's time for Germany tho.
Like in two weeks.. It will be time to see One Direction in concert. I CAN NOT WAIT!!
Harry Styles.. I mean.. Harry Styles... *Swooning*
And as I'm just rambling on about BS now.. I'm gonna wrap it up and leave y'all with some pictures from the cruise with the girls.
LOVE!
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