Friendship & puppy love

Vacation? I guess in my case, my version of vacation starts today!
I'm gonna be house sitting for my best friend, looking after her cat while she is away at my ex friends wedding! I hope and know that she will have a blast and I wish the newly weds nothing but good things.

Next week it's time for Stockholm again!
I'm seriously excited for this one. Gonna first visit my new, old friend Anna!
Anna and I have known each other for years now, but never on a "friend" level, but I think we've found each other now and a new friendship is in the making.
Am also really excited cause while I'm in Stockholm, my puppy will be staying with Patrik.
Patrik is the cousin of my very good friend, Jennifer.
My puppy is normally TERRIFIED of men, but Patrik.. she absolutely loves.
Sure, she's a little shy at first but give her a few minutes and she won't let him out of her site.
She has good taste in guys.. Patrik is terrific and I trust him blindly with my little girl!
Will be good for her to be around him. It's good practice for her to be around a man.

Tonight I will be hanging out with my lovely Angelica.
Angelica and I used to work together and I managed to hang on to her afterwards.
It's pretty stupid to let a good person slip out of your life just cause you had "other things to focus on." Love her dearly.

Insomnia

Woke up at 3:10am, wide awake and not about to go back to sleep.

Spent the day at  the beach today with my good friend Thea and her kids.
Love those kids!

Yesterday was Birthday celebrations for my gorgeous friend Linda.
A bunch of her friends gathered at her place before we went out.
Linda and I have known each other for about 5 years.
She is one of the strongest and most positive people I know and she is my inspiration to wake up and fight every morning when I feel like giving up.

I've had a lot of thoughts around "dugs" lately.
I guess it's some what triggered by a person I recently met.
He has been battling a drug addiction for a few years and is finally getting back on track.
It brings me so much strength to see other people pull trough.
It's inspiring for sure.
I wish I was more educated on the "drug" subject.
And I don't mean on "substances" I mean, like, what to look for, what are the signs?
WHY people start and what makes them continue..
Do they somewhere a long the road of their addiction wake up and realize "Shit, what am I doing".
Things like that.
My mother battled alcoholism for as long as I can remember.
So yea, I am one of those "Adult children of alcoholics". (ACA). Go ahead, Google it.
Check out the laundry (Link) list while you're at it. That would be what I am working through.
I've come SUCH a long way through that list since only a year ago!
I was just looking through it now and I thought to myself.. "Wow.. That's actually not me anymore!"
What an awesome feeling!
Anyways.. I would love to just sit down with someone who has been trough a drug addiction, and ask questions.
I would like to be more educated on the matter for my own good..
I want to be able to actively make a choice to not have it in my surroundings.
To be able to recognize it and decide to leave, rather than having someone take the choice from me by simply not knowing what I am around.

Well, that's enough thinking for tonight.

Be smart!

You seem to be perfect!

Crushing....

 

 

 

Closure

So.. It's the end of an era when I say that I am done with THAT part of my life.
I guess I've been done with it for a while, but I'm so used to loving him that I kind of just stuck around cause it was familiar... Does that make any sense?
It would to Sophia.. I know that much ;)

I have more important things to focus on than to peddle back and forth to that unhealthy relationship.
So.. I'm done with it.
My focus is far from him and it feels good to be quite honest.
I'm grateful.
I've never really been the person to put myself first before.
But a good friend of mine told me that I should be the most important person to me.
And I guess he was right. Just took me a little while to agree with him.
But hey.. better late than never, right?
I'm doing SO well with myself and I wanna keep my own focus on ME.
I've lost a little more than 60lbs since Jan 28th now.. That would be 30 kilos.
So I'm past half way to my goal. Feels awesome.
I'm gonna try and get rid of another 15 kilos before the end of the year, so that leaves only 10 kilos to lose before my birthday in may!
Watch me!

There are a few things that I would love to write here, but since my blog is now open to public, I can't! It's nothing major.. Well I guess it is.. But, I'm gonna give it some time and maybe in a little while I might be able to share.

I hope everyone is doing well.

Love!