Blessings

I am filled with so much love, joy and Gratitude that I almost feel I'm gonna burst!
These past three weeks have just been a blessing.
One good thing after another!
Today I found out that I am one of 20 lucky winners to win an unplugged gig with Sweden's Eurovision Song Contest winner, Robin Stjernberg!
I get to bring a friend and I chose Jennifer to go with me.
Jennifer is one of the many great people I met while living in Santa Monica.
She is the only Swede that I met there that I still keep in close contact with.
I knew she loves Robin so it was pretty easy to pick my "Plus 1".

I'm definitely looking at a GOOD week ahead of me.
Friday - Schulman show with Jennifer M.
Saturday - Backstreet Boys 20th Celebrations with the Team.
Sunday - Quality time with Jennifer M.
Monday - Justin Bieber concert.
Tuesday - Off to Jennifer N!
Wednesday - Quality time with Jennifer N
Thursday - Robin Stjernberg unplugged concert!
Friday - I GET MY PUPPY!!!

 

 

 

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Happy Weekend!

This weekend! I can not waaaait for this weekend to get here!
It's a HUGE weekend for fans all around the world and I really can't get more excited about this..
Well, I could.. If I was there in person.. But you get my drift.
My boys are celebrating 20 years as a group.
TWENTY years! This a "Boyband". Practically unheard of!
Many have split up and reunited, but my boys.. My Backstreet Boys.. They have been at it since day one!
Fans in their "teams" all over the world are getting together to celebrate this day, Saturday.
Me and my "team" are meeting up at Jennifers place in Stockholm.
Can't wait to see everyone again and share some good laughs and memories!

On Monday, me and Jenn will find ourselves at the Justin Bieber concert.
I am both excited and a little bit ashamed over this. Ha!
I do love Justin and I think he is extremely talented.. But yea..
Will definitely be a good weekend for us!

 

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My wonderful BFF

Long day. Filled with.. Not much at all.. But yet stressful.
Good things overshadowed by not so good things..
My best friend, Saara ended up at the ER for bleeding intestines.
They have no idea what is causing this. I've been worried all day, and I don't handle worries very well. This the girl struggling with anxiety!
She's been complaining about this for over a week and I've been telling her to go see a Dr. So I'm happy she finally did.. Knowing now that it was this severe.
I hope she will get better soon. I hate knowing that someone I care about, are not doing well.

I love you to death my beautiful BEST friend!!

Cockatoodeldoo!

 

 

 

 

Heartfelt

I don't think there is a bigger compliment in life to give someone, than to trust them with your children. At least not to me.
It brings me so much joy to be trusted with someone's child.
I babysit a lot for my friend's kids. I think it's a give and take kind of situation.
I don't just do it for my friends. I do it cause I love it and I think my friends asks me a lot also, cause they know that I love it.
I mean, I can only base this on me.
If it was MY kids, I would rather trust them with someone whom I know love kids, than to someone who would do it just for me as a favor.
Tonight I watched Doris kids for two hrs while she jetted off to IKEA.
Her kids.. They're my little stars.
The twins are always a joy to be around, and then there is little Alvin.
I have a special bond with him. I got to be there from day one with him where I missed out on over one year with the twins, living in the US.
I love the three of them! They're gorgeous and well-behaved.

I spent the afternoon with Mathilda today.
Mathilda is like a little sister to me. I got to know her while she was dating my little brother.
Now her and my brother are broken up since years back, but her and I are still close.
She means a lot to me. I just feel.. At home when I'm around her.
She's good people.

Tomorrow I have another interview for a job. I don't know much about this job so I can't say much about it. But either way.. I REALLY want a job so of course I hope I'll get it.

On a different note.. I have to express my deepest sympathy and condolences to the people affected in the tragic events that are going on in Boston today.
I hope and pray that something drastic will be done in America to sort out things like this.
To many school shootings and public shootings in general really.
How many more mass murders until something is done.

Legend

A good scare

It's almost 3am and I'm still up. And wide awake too..
Just walked my best friend to her car. She was here watching a Movie with me.
This is the first night alone in this apartment and everyone who knows me, know that I don't do well alone.
For many reasons really.. But mainly cause of my anxiety and the fact that I get REALLY bored. I hate living alone..
I do best in a roomie living arrangement.
Of course, I love my "alone time" just as much as the next.. But I still want someone around.. Close bye.
I love noise and around me. The sound of traffic, Music or just.. "city noise".
I could NEVER live on the country side where things are "nice and quiet".
Anyways.. Saara and I watched two scary movies.
"The haunting in Connecticut 2", and "Mama".
Mama... Now that is some seriously fucked up shit! Finally a GOOD scary movie!
Like most scary movies, the ending was a bit.. meh.. but all in all a really good scare!

Tomorrow is Sunday and also my favorite day of the week do to the fact that every Sunday,
Saara and I spend between 5-6hrs at the gym.
Tomorrow won't be the same, Saara is sick and won't be able to make it.
I REALLY want to go, so probably will go for a while, not the whole 6hrs, but at least for one or two sessions.
All the work I'm putting in is definitely starting to show! I am starting to actually like the way I look.
I know I have a LONG way to go, but the fact that I am starting to feel good about my self, means a lot to me.
I am happier and stronger as a person. For sure!

It feels a bit weird not hearing Isabelle talking to her gamers over the computer.
Or having Cayenne walk in telling us something about something on the computer or. I never know.
I've grown fond of the noises and sounds of home now..
And not having little Bons around feels REALLY strange.
I love that dog! He is definitely one of a kind.
Soon I will have my own little puppy to care for. I think that will be good for me.

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Random thoughts

I worry myself sometimes with my thoughts.
This might sound like the strangest thing to most of you.
But I am a firm believer in "The Secret" so to me in makes perfect sense.
"Ask and you shall receive". Even in religion it's there.
It mostly happens late at night when I have trouble falling a sleep.
My mind starts to wander and I end up thinking about situations and people I should not be thinking of. Mainly there's this one person I am referring to.
Most of the people who know me, also know who I am talking about.
THAT guy.
I can't help it! He is just, THERE.
It's not like I lay down at night and go, "Oh, I'm gonna think/dream about HIM tonight".
NO.. If I had any say in this.. he would not be a part of it.
I can't help to think what it means tho.. As I after all this time, STILL can't get him out of my mind.
I mean.. I.. I don't know what I mean.. It just confuses me.
And since I am thinking of him this much lately.. It kind of worries me that the next time I visit Jersey.. There he'll be.
And my thoughts and feelings on that.. it extremely split.
Part of me would really like to see him and hear how he is doing, while the rest of me thinks it would be a REALLY bad idea.
Oh well.. It's not really good to worry about things that have yet to even happen.

Anyways.. Tomorrow I will be taking a drug test, as my criminal record will be checked AND I will be tested on my stress level and my ability to simultaneously do many things at the same time.
I am not a person who handles stress very well so I'm kind of.. Stressing about it.. Ironic, huh?

Well.. Time to take another shot at sleep.

In a past life

That one friend

 

 

You are til date, the most important person in the history of me!
Without your help and support, I would not be the person I am today.

I thank you, for being there for me.

Compaints

So I got a complaint last night.
Apparently I have to up my tempo on the blogging a little bit. (Read A lot).
The reason as to why I don't blog that much is cause I hate blogging if I don't have anything to say?
I don't wanna keep talking about the same things and going on and on about how fantastic my friends are. Even tho they are!

Good for my complainer that I have things to update with ;)
First off I passed the first test on my interview for my job. Two more tests to go, and I know for a fact that I will pass them, cause one if a drug test and the other one is criminal record, which I don't have! YEY! The job is for Sweden's version of 911.
I will be one of the people answering the calls.
Am REALLY needing this job as for the fact that I love money and I miss spending like a rich bitch!
Also cause my boys are about to go on tour, and I need SERIOUS money for that!
And last but not least, Me and my friends are going to NY for my birthday next year, so need to save up for that. Cause I don't want it to be a budged trip like all my other NY trips so far.
This time I want money to spend. Shopping on 5th Avenue. Yes Please!

Next week is the boys 20th celebrations! They have been a group for TWENTY years!
I remember every year as a fan.. More or less!
Me and my "team" are meeting up in Stockholm to celebrate and to share memories.
Am SO proud of them for coming this far and STILL going strong.
They are the last band standing out of the many boybands that surfaced in the 90's and early 2000.
And now they have been a boyband for so long, that the trend has circled and come back and we yet again see groups with 4-5 young guys singing together, making girls CRAZY with emotions!
I'm PROUD, proud to still be here after all these years, still just as proud of a fan as I was when they first started!

The week after my Stockholm trip, my little puppy will be with me!
Can't wait to have her!! My own little dog! FINALLY!!

No Doubt!

I will win!

Not immediately but definitely.

 

 

Motivator

A lot of things are happening in my life right now.
I'm happy with where I am and I really hope I'll continue doing what I am doing.
It brings me so much motivation and happiness to hear friends tell me that I am SO far from the person I used to be a few years back.
A good friend of mine told me that I motivate her to keep pushing towards her goals, even tho my goals and her goals are nowhere the same, it's my struggles and determination that motivates her.
That was by far one of the best things anyone has ever said to me.
It's things like THAT, that keeps me going.
I want nothing but to motivate people. If it's in health or something else in life, it don't matter.
I just want people to see me as someone who will never give up on herself.

I spend most of my waking hours now days, at the gym!
I have lost 30lbs since January 28th and I am nowhere close to "there yet".
It's an endless "uphill battle" but I am doing really well and staying healthy in both body and mind.
Me and Saara spend between 4-5 days/week at the gym, and each time we're there between 1-5hrs.
So I'm doing pretty good!

On a different note, I recieved some WONDERFUL news 2 days ago.
As most of my friends know, I have been DYING for a dog of my own.
A little puppy to love and raise.
And just like that, out of the blue, my good friend Jack, tells me he has a puppy for me!!
I am OVER THE MOON for this and I can hardly wait for my little princess to get here!
She will be joining me at the end of the month.

Untill then, HappyThankYouMorePlease