PT, FL, NJ, NY?

Good morning, good moooorning!
Woke up extra early today to walk the dog and get ready for the gym.
I have a PT session today so need to be both mentally and physically prepared!
My PT had a tendency to absolutely KILL me!
That's alright, I know it's good for me and that neither she or I would push myself longer than I can actually reach. My last PT session I almost fainted.. Yeaaa.. don't wanna do that again!

It's Friday today.. I have NO plans what so ever... I don't think? Or at least what I can remember.. Hmm.. I'm still really craving a visit to FL this year.. Am gonna REALLY try and get money together so I can go visit my wonderful FL family! Just the thought gets me excited!
The thing with me is that whenever I visit the US, I always wanna go to NY and Jersey... for certain reasons.. It's like.. that "what if" feeling that hits me.. You know... I COULD run in to HIM if I go.. So do I really wanna go to the US and NOT go to Jersey?
I do.. But.. I don't? If that makes any sense?
This time I WILL go to FL tho. I haven't been back for SO long and I really miss my family!


Oh well.. Time to go burn some calories!

I always liked that!

This is what you call talent!
LOVE Maria Mena!

Yey Soph!!

Oh em geeee!!
Got the BESTEST news EVER today!
My most important friend and person in the history of me, told me that she will be moving to Sweden next year!
Only for one semester as she takes classes at Uppsala University, but still!
Am so excited I could die!
Sophia is the reason to me being the person I am today, if it wasn't for her, I would have never gotten this far in my recovery. LOVE her to death!
Haven't seen her since I left Cali back in October of last year.
Will be soooooo good to have her close by again!
CONGRATS CONGRATS CONGRATS!

Broken Cellphone & (next) Weekend fun!

Waking up to another sunny gorgeous warm summer day!
Loving life when then sun is out.
It's Thursday.. I have no plans today other than to walk over to Nadjas place to borrow her phone..
My phone is dead and will be forever missed. SUCKS!
Have been without a cellphone for 2 days now.. feel like I'm isolated from the rest of the world!
Whatever did we do before there were cellphones?

Tomorrow Saara and I have a PT session at the gym.
I have a feeling we're gonna get murdered!
My last PT session I almost threw up and fainted. Need less to say but, our PT knows what she's doing! 

Really reaaaally looking forward to next weekend!
Friday my gorgeous Nadja will be having her "moving-in-party".
We'll be chilling at her place, then we're hitting the club!
Will be fun!
Then on Saturday I'm headed off to Stockholm to visit my two Jennifers!
I have TWO!
Saturday - Sunday, I'll be visiting Jennifer. M.
She's one of those really beautiful people who just can do no wrong. She's golden, heart and soul!
I always feel like I can be myself around her, she's 100% drama free and always a joy to be around!
Sunday - Monday I'll be visiting Jennifer. N.
Jennifer and I lived in Santa Monica together, along with Jay!
We got really close really fast and we had FUN! We share SO many gorgeous and fun memories from our time in Santa Monica.. I don't get to see her as much as I would like to now days.. But I still love her just the same!

My little sister might also be home visiting next week, Thursday - Sunday, As I'll be leaving on Saturday I won't get to see her the whole visit, but even if I just get to see her for a few hours, that would be enough for me!
I'm SO proud of her for doing so well and for getting back on track and taking her life back!
Love her dearly!

Florida Cravings

Florida. Heaven on earth?
I haven't been back to FL since my first visit back in 1999.
It was and still is, the best summer of my life.
I met people there that would forever change my life, and me as a person.
it's now been 14years since my summer there.. and I am REALLY craving a trip. ASAP.
I'm blessed to still have the wonderful people I met in FL, in my life.
And I'm really looking to go visit them. Soon.
Was talking to the mother of the family, Suzanne, the other day and we're thinking December - January would be a good time to come visit.
The oldest daughter of the family, Lexy is having her first child in January so would be such a blessing to get to be there for that.
Little Lexy.. I still see her as the little 5yr old who helped me to "break in to" Nick Carters house. Ha!
She's all grown up now! Crazy how time flies!
I reeeeally hope and beg to the universe that things will work out and I will get to visit them in Dec-Jan.
December is and have always been a horrible time of the year for me.. Cause of Christmas..
I really don't do well around Christmas.. Spending the day alone.. while everyone else gets to be with their family.. I don't have a family so it's hard.
So, hopefully.. maybe this year I will have something to look forward to when Christmas is creeping closer.

Anyways. Spent most of the day outside today.
Got up early to go meet Sandra and to FINALLY get my baby girl back.
Sandra borrowed my puppy and It's been really weird to not have her around and snuggled up to me when I go to bed. But now she's back and I'm happy as ever!
Took a long walk with her to the dog park and she got to play with lotts of dogs, so when we got back home she fell right asleep. I took that time to go catch sun with my good friend Thea.
Now I'm just laying in bed waiting for my roomie to get home.
Maybe watch a movie later and just chill.

Tomorrow is a new day and I hope it brings me joy!
Hope all of you are well!

Love!

She Shot The Messenger

So.. Messed up weekend!
Scenario;
Friend asks me to talk to her boyfriend about certain events.
I ask boyfriend about things, and tell the boyfriend that I am going to tell my friend about this conversation.
I ask my friend, "Do you want to talk about this now, or later".
Friend wants to talk about it now.
I tell her what her boyfriend has said.
.... I end up being the "Bad Guy" in this. Whaaaaaa...?
Don't shoot the messenger. I did what I was asked to do and still I am the villain?
Makes NO sense what so ever.

Sad and upset..

Sunday - Wednesday

The sun is out again!
It's been raining all night and all day today. I guess it's needed after 3 furiously hot days in a row.
I've had a few really good days now, no anxiety for about a week. Thank goodness!
Sunday was spent with my Angel, Nadja and her son, Dylan.
We took a walk to the city beach area (yes, we have a beach IN the city) spent aaaaall day in the sun!
Monday I had some much needed ME time, just hung out, want for a run and painted my nails.
Tuesday I had plans with my wonderful friend, Sandra.
Sandra is one of my really really good friends. She never judges, never questions  and never makes you feel any less than fantastic! Love her to death! We hung out by the pool for a few hours than headed to IKEA for some shopping, ended our day with a BBQ.
Today I've had the pleasure of babysitting Thea's three kids. They are always well behaved and never give me a hard time.
Now I'm just laying here waiting for the rain to stop. Hopefully tomorrow I'll get to spend some time with the sun again.

I'm missing my fantastic roomie. She and her boyfriend are on vacation. They won't be home until Saturday.

Well, time to finish up.
Love to all!