Everyday

Coming to terms with the feeling of betrayal and abandonment is not an easy task.
Especially not when its fresh and when it hits you with no explanation.
I am still working on this and I am starting to come to terms with it, but there's still a lot of resentment towards that person. I don't think I'll ever get passed that.
And to be honest, I don't think I have to either.
Friends will come and friends will go. I learned that the hard way.

I've had a rough patch for a few days now. Falling a little behind and been struggling with myself.
Had to txt my roomie and apologize for being.. "off".
She responded that she had not noticed anything "off" with me and that I had no reason to apologize.
That felt so good to hear. I don't want my "off" perionds to effect anyone around me.
They are my rough times and they should not have to be someone elses bad mood.
I love my roomie and her daughter. We're like a little family.
I am starting to feel safe here and thats an awesome and rare feeling with me.
Same goes with my BFF, Saara.
I LOVE spending time with her and she makes my days a little brighter. A lot brighter.
Saara and her fiancé have pretty much become a part of my every day.
So much so that not even her fiancé realizes how much time me and Saara actually spend together.
When Saara and I hang out, we don't even really do anything, we chit-chat, play monopolly and watch movies. No need to go out and party or things like that.. we just.. are! So comfortable.
I love her to death and she's one of the best things that ever happened to me. By far.