So I was debating on whether to write this entry or not.
Figured I was gonna do it, cause I owe it to myself to be real.
I might come off as harsh, but you know what.. If I do, it's probably cause you found the shoe fits and you don't wanna wear it. Sorry, not sorry.
I am completely over time consuming, energy stealing "friends", who seam to have gotten it in their head, that they have some kind of right to know what is going on in my life.
My health, my well being.. my life in general.
And when I stand up for my self and ask them to back off, tries to give me this huge guilt trip about how I only care about ME and how my life if all about ME and how I'M feeling.
Well, first off.. I share my life more than most people.
I keep my real friends updated on how I'm doing and what i need from them in order to stay strong.
And by my "real friends" I mean the people who actively wants to see me face to face, hang out with me and do whatever. Not facebook friends who have nothing better to do than to sit behind a computer screen and creep on social media, pretending to give a shit.
Second of all, I do care about ME, do to my health issues at the moment, it's kind of a given to care about and for myself in order to not get any sicker.
And third of all.. My life if about ME!? I am truly sorry, not for playing the main character in my own life, but for the fact that you apparently don't play lead in yours.
I have many supporting acts in my life, people i genuinely care about, keep myself updated with, and people i support. Those are the same people who also put time and effort in to me and my life.
I do not "owe" my time to anyone other than those people.
And no matter what you may believe, I decide who these people are. Not anyone else.
I am also not the kind of person who needs daily contact with my friends. It can overwhelm me.
I don't need to talk to every single one of my friends every day. That don't mean I care any less, it just means I value my alone time and also respect the fact that they also have lives and other things to care about.
I am a no bullshit kind of person. I will give my FULL heart and faith in to someone, believe in them 100%, trust them with every fiber of my being.. But cross me ones and trust is gone.
I will still care about you, but my devotion and loyalty to you is gone.
You can no longer expect me to check in with you and put my time and effort in to a friendship YOU threw away. So to get pissed at me for putting my time and loyalty elsewhere... is not my problem.
Are we clear?
Good.
